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Edmund's hit 1k comments! So in honor of this and because I'm too lazy to essay:

ASK ME QUESTIONS. You don't even need to wait for me to ask back, just pelt me with questions. As many comments as you want. Go for it. o7

Also yes this applies to Jade IF YOU REALLY WANT TO.

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Ven's enthusiasm and easygoing nature is really refreshing. He's just so cheerful! In the future, this might Lucy ping him here and there, but this is the first time anyone's had so much faith in him and his abilities. Even if Lucy had that kind of faith in him, it's different because they're siblings. Edmund and Ventus absolutely aren't siblings, even if Edmund sort of It's really encouraging, but also nerve-wracking because damn. This is the first time he's actually seriously wanted to be someone good for someone. Edmund just doesn't want to let Ventus down at all.

But Edmund's all about being wary of the inevitable letdown. For him, that kind of faith is something that's somewhat naive, but mostly blind. It's not out of ignorance, because he can tell it's genuine. The fact that it's so genuine is what scares him because BOY, Edmund doesn't feel that genuine. A lot of the "good" acts Ed does are ways of trying to assuage his issues with his own perceived competency. Self-esteem issues riddled with reality stretched this way and that, ahoy.

So he really likes being around Ventus! It's one of the highlights of being here in Aather! Except he's scared one day Ventus'll figure out that he's not that cool and goodbye. :'< If he wasn't a knight, he'd totally want to buddy-buddy all the time with Ven even with competency issues, but he's a knight! Gotta be good! Really hard to do in practice, especially when your memories set the bar at being this mature, competent, clear thinking KING. But give him some time, he'll settle into accepting that Ven has such faith in him and their relationship from his end will be that much healthier for it.

...so were Edmund's I-cannot-accept-this-reality-and-then-I-fail-to-act issues compounded by that first game of his? Because it seems like they might be.

ps Edmund you have nowhere near the self-esteem issues of my best friend on Peridot. IT'S OKAY Ven will love you anyway.